Rewind Replay Repeat: A Memoir of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
Publisher: Hazelden Publishing
ISBN 10: 1592853714
ISBN 13: 978-1592853717
The revealing story of one man's struggle with obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) and his hard-won recovery.
Rewind, Replay, Repeat is the revealing story of Jeff Bell's struggle with obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) and his hard-won recovery. Nagging doubt: It's a part of everyday life. Who hasn't doubled back to check on a door or appliance? But what if one check wasn't enough? Nor two or three? And what if nagging doubt grew so intense that physical senses became all but useless? Such was the case for Bell, a husband, father, and highly successful radio news anchor--and one of the millions of Americans living with obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD). His fascinating memoir recounts the depths to which this debilitating anxiety disorder reduced him--to driving his car in continuous circles, scouring his hands in scalding water, and endlessly rewinding, replaying, and repeating in his head even the most mundane daily experiences. Readers will learn what OCD feels like from the inside, and how healing from such a devastating condition is possible through therapy, determination, and the support of loved ones.
From Publishers Weekly
Bell's memoir is a revealing look at life with Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) that goes to often hysterical lengths to convey the dynamics of OCD by reviewing life consumed by the disorder and attempts to overcome it. Radio news anchor and first-time author Bell chronicles the constant worrying, rechecking and unstoppable thought-loops that spin him like a whirligig through his day, recounting "virtual tapes" from his life. Cleverly labeling different sections of his narrative "play," "fast forward" and "pause," using the last of which to stop the action and address readers directly, Bell is easy to like, and he wisely keeps things from getting too technical: "I myself don't even pretend to understand those brain complexities ... My expertise is in doubt." As such, he provides an experiential report of everything from a (very) minor boat accident and the (slightly) major on-air radio flub that followed, to the efficacy of the "Quirk Defense," to his last-ditch, year-long project to overcome his symptoms. Bell's story provides plenty of lessons, perspective and hope for those living with OCD-either their own or someone else's-in a funny, highly entertaining narrative.
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--Charles Osgood, CBS News Sunday Morning anchor
"A page-turner for anyone interested in obsessive-compulsive disorder. Beautifully written and gripping in its intensity, it takes the reader on the perilous adventure of the fight against OCD. Jeff Bell enlists us on his journey: his sense of humor, irony, and reporting skills make this book a 'must read.'"
--Judith l. Rapoport, MD, author of The Boy Who Couldn't Stop Washing
"This is an epoch-making book. It is one of the most incisive memoirs ever written on the experience of mental illness, and by far the best first-person account available on life from the point of view of the OCD sufferer. Jeff Bell has scaled the heights of narrative memoirs, conveying the excruciating details of the inner life of a man whose brain is on fire."
--Jeffrey M. Schwartz, MD, author of Brain Lock and The Mind and the Brain
"In a most sensitive way, Jeff Bell explains what it's like to be inside of his own self-made prison and describes his efforts to heal himself. His emphasis on his own spirituality and his willingness to change his attitude will shine light on the road to recovery for the many people afflicted with this disorder."
--Gerald G. Jampolsky, MD, author of Love Is Letting Go of Fear
About the Author
Jeff Bell is a longtime veteran of radio and television news. His extensive media experience includes nearly a decade of anchoring drive-time radio programs, several years of writing television news, and numerous days spent chasing stories throughout Northern California. He lives in the Bay Area with his wife and two daughters.Jeff Bell is an air-name.